Saturday, September 2, 2017
Being good enough, is rarely the criterion.
Oh, Jesus, what can I say. It's been so long. I'm used to FB, or worse, twitter, the Haiku of social media. Here (Blogland) you can breathe, luxuriate in space and freedom.
So much water under the bridge. You can never step into the same river twice. I think you can but you won't be the same person.
What has there been since I last stepped into this river? Death, my mum and my mother in law, my nephew, and ridiculously amongst such gravity, but yet perhaps not quite so ridiculous, my dog.
Ostricisation by virtually every poet and poetry outlet in the whole of Ireland. Hell hath no fury like the fury held for a whistleblower. Ill health, depression, drink, writing, surviving, living, yearning,hoping, enduring, fading if not quite yet failing. I should post a pic of my dinner,or a cat wearing a hat, this is no place for hurt.
The mag I co-edit is possibly/probably the best in Ireland, the most neglected, reviled.How dare a non-university (un)educated prole try to enter our hallowed hall? Where will it end, if we let them in? Poetry may be (should be) truth, but truth stands no chance against lies and deception. I think we'll call PB 'The Mag they Couldn't Hang'. If we survive. PB7 is due soon. It's wonderful. Not that anyone will admit it.
My second collection, 'The Death of Poetry' is , somewhat ironically, a lifeline. It won't be liked, no doubt it will be shot down like REd Kite in the wrong place, or worse, totally ignored, because it won't be their story, it may contradict their lies, but it will be my truth.
Somebody recently mentioned (and like all (occasional) ego maniacs I thought it pertained to me and even if it didn't I could see how it (mistakenly could), 'blank white flags' Well TDOP will be (please God, it will 'be') many things, but white flags, it won't. I'm envisaging poems more along the lines of Red rags to bulls(hit).Watch out for it!
We are all dying, we are dying from the day we are born, it is not the result that matters, but how we played the game. Except it isn't a game, that's where the elite go wrong. This is it, this is serious, this is real.
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7 comments:
One more sentence to add to your version of my perfect day on your comment today:
'Heard from TFE for the first time in what seems like years - makes a doubly perfect day!xx
Good to have you back in blogland. So sorry that you have had more than your share of sadness in recent times - too much for one family.
I think it is important that you still write poetry and publish the magazine even without the recognition you deserve. It is most unfair, but the fact that you are driven to write is the most important thing. Keep going.
It's true - there is more space to think here. And most of us are still around... and not ignoring each other.
x
Happy you're alive and, apparently, still kicking!
So sorry for your losses Peadar, really tough times. And good luck with the collection, I will look forward to reading. On the subject of reality - recently watched hypernormalisation on youtube, you might enjoy it if you've two hours some time.
Thanks Weaver, Rachel and English Rider!
Thank you Heather and Niamh. I must have missed publishing all these much appreciated comments.
Might try that (is it a film?) Niamh!
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